Holiday stress

I am so sorry for my delays this past two weeks. Of course I thought taking a vacation instead of gifts this year would relieve the stress, but truth is other people's stress can still get to you.
Pressure has been put on from work not due to my personal but to the economy and that now has effected taking care of my kids treatments. It is so crazy trying to keep a normal life and maintain doctor appointments. Last night I was so stressed out from my review that I just broke down and cried when I realized I had to take my kids in for labs this morning. I had to be into work earlier than usual and luckily my kids were out of school and Cristian bumped his appointment to take the kids. Then to make me feel like the worst mom after Angelina called me and said that she cried because she needed me there and I wasn't there.
I promised her that I would be there the day of blood transfusion. This is so hard trying to stay normal and smile when all I want to do is cry and scream. I am one person trying so hard to do my best and now I am being told I am not doing my best.
After the kids went to labs I get the call from the nurse that one kid is ready to transfuse and the other can wait til next week. Here I already am missing work and to get the kids on two different days NO WAY! so had to compromise with Christmas on Sunday and every thing closed and bumped the transfusion two days in hopes to keep them together. Sorry if I don't make a whole lot of since. I think I am going to get through this week, go enjoy my children this Holiday weekend, and just be grateful they are getting the BT they need this week.
Sorry if my stress has gotten to you, or if you have the Holiday stresses. I truly wish every one a Happy Holiday season, and remember to enjoy your loved ones, and never take them for granted. It truly is NOT the gifts that make the day special, but IT IS the people you spend it with that make it special.